poor me, for thiking i'm poor
ok, so today i was in a conference for 7 hours, listening to a man who made $300,000 to talk about meeting with people to plan. now, grant it i personally didn't pay for the conference, nor did i attend because i chose to. i was the lucky 10th winner on our staff to attend. yah, not so lucky! more like sucker! however, i did get 2 days away from kids.... gotta look at the bright side.
anyhow, lately i've been thinking about why i live where i live and how healthy it is to live in the OC. i guess it's not something i've been "just" thinking about... technically its been something on my heart for a while. basically, are we, christians called to live in this self endulgance and socio economic bliss without thinking twice about how christ calls us to live? when we talk about the rich, we refer to the multi-millionaires (remember 1 million isn't enough in socal), those who have their own businesses with exspendable funds, those who hold high positions of political office, those who grew up with money and have vacation homes... you know, the ones who the world looks at in envy and think they can only dream of that kind of bank account. well, the truth is... yes, they are the top 1%... but, where am i on this spectrum? if i compare myself to the poor in third world countries, the empoverised in skid row, the slums of santa ana, the poor in the south, the starved children in india and south korea, the crime ridden streets of DC, the drug infested lands of south america, the prostiution filled streets of thailand, the AIDS population who can't get the necessary drugs to survive in Africa, the malaria infestation in asia... my world of "poor" isn't looking so "poor" any more. i mean really, i live in HB, drive an "old" car which still runs well, have a good paying job that pays the bills each month and allows me to travel, buy peppermint mochas at starbucks, a health plan that allows me to be treated for anything except death, a filled refridgerator which often times is full if food that has gone bad because i didn't get to it in time... too many choices, i guess. So, where do i fall on the spectrum of the rich in the world? am i really that far for the 1%? the fact is, i'm closer to them in wealth than i am to 1/3 of the entire world population. What has God called me to do? how can i make my thinking revolve around what is "truth" about my place in the world, rather than constantly comparing myself to the elite 1%? i need to engrain in my mind that "poor me for thinking i'm poor". i should rejoice for His blessings and challenge myself to extend to the others boldly out of the abundance the Lord has provided and blessed me with. why is being so self endulged, greedy, and selfish so easy?!? Lord, please open my eyes!